The Drive for Academic Success, a.k.a. Insanity
(originally written June 19, 2008 on Blogger)
I recently found an interesting article (linked from Eduwonkette) about the disadvantages of elite, Ivy-league education, not only for the students of this education, but for the society that bears the consequences of their actions. A particularly poignant paragraph:
The world that produced John Kerry and George Bush is indeed giving us our next generation of leaders. The kid who’s loading up on AP courses junior year or editing three campus publications while double-majoring, the kid whom everyone wants at their college or law school but no one wants in their classroom, the kid who doesn’t have a minute to breathe, let alone think, will soon be running a corporation or an institution or a government. She will have many achievements but little experience, great success but no vision. The disadvantage of an elite education is that it’s given us the elite we have, and the elite we’re going to have.
Well that just fills me with puppies and sunshine. The article definitely strikes a tone with me because, while certainly not of Ivy-league “caliber”, I definitely have spent a lot of time these last five or six years trying to work past my crazy drive to perform well academically, no matter the cost: health, happiness, personality, life, etc. I remember a high school teacher encouraging me to apply to Harvard, just to see if I could get in. I remember feeling particularly adverse to this idea, though the only thing I could pinpoint is the suicide rate at these hyper-elite schools. I now realize what it was: people there didn’t live lives, either literally (morbid, I know) or figuratively. They lived through their number-driven goals of being the traditional stories of success: make lots of money, get lots of esteem. Ugh. Not for me — though I wouldn’t argue against a little more money than I currently have.
My nerves about graduate school have kicked in again, though not as strongly as before. Previously, I was getting some serious anxiety about not doing well, but the blessing of thinking for two weeks that I could just do this a few years from now when I have a greater Chinese ability was that I stopped worrying. I just got comfortable with the idea that I could do things in a non-rushed way. The curse of getting a sweet financial aid package and actually going to this uber-intensive graduate school program this year is that I’m worrying again. The materials are blunt: it is intense, it is difficult, and if you don’t pass with a B- or more in all your classes, you are dropped from the program (because technically, students aren’t candidates for an M.A. until after successfully going through the first summer).
So, like I did when nervously anticipating my acceptance/rejection letter earlier this spring, I’ve started thinking: what if I don’t do well? What if I do my best, I work my ass off, and in the end I don’t pass? Well, I probably won’t die from it. PROBABLY. I don’t think I have to report the “summer of failed graduate school” to anyone, so that’s also a plus. I’d go to China next fall like originally planned. I’d look for teaching jobs. After beginning to teach, I’d probably apply to Middlebury again, along with some other graduate programs, because in MA you have to have a Master’s (or maybe just be enrolled in a Master’s program) within the first five years of teaching to get your license renewed. Would it be that bad? Would I be worse off, other than the cost of gas to drive me to and from?
In the end: no, the world would not end. My life and career would also not end. I’d be okay. I’d certainly receive a lovely jab to my self-esteem, but I would still have improved my Chinese, still would have given it my best, still would have a job, and still would be coming home to my boyfriend and lovely apartment and delicious food.
My goal for this summer: to stay healthy, sleep enough, exercise enough, laugh enough, and not fall into the trap of going off the deep end in the name of academic success. I will try my best, but not at the expense of my own sense of self worth. Because I don’t want to be the student that all the colleges want to cherish and brag about. I want to be someone interesting, someone valuable, someone content with their existence, and if I have to fail grad school to do it, so be it.
I do NOT want to be George Bush.
Dear Red States (a forward)
I found this an funny and intriguing bit of text; not sure about these stats (because stats can always be manipulated or just plain invented, especially in the world of email forwards), but … wow.
Dear Red States:
If you manage to steal this election too we’ve decided we’re leaving. We
intend to form our own country, and we’re taking the other Blue States with
us. In case you aren’t aware, that includes California, Hawaii, Oregon,
Washington, Minnesota, Wisconsin, Michigan, Illinois and all the Northeast.
We believe this split will be beneficial to the n! ation, and especially to
the people of the new country of New California.To sum up briefly: You get Texas, Oklahoma and all the slave
states. We get stem cell research and the best beaches. We get the Statue of
Liberty. You get Dollywood.
We get Intel and Microsoft. You get WorldCom.We get Harvard. You get Ole’ Miss.
We get 85% of America’s venture capital and entrepreneurs. You get Alabama.
We get two-thirds of the tax revenue, you get to make the red states pay
their fair share.Since our aggregate divorce rate is 22% lower than the
Christian Coalition’s, we get a bunch of happy families. You get a bunch of
single moms.Please be aware that Nuevo California will be pro-choice and anti-war, and
we’re going to want all our citizens back from Iraq at once. If you need
people to fight, ask your evangel! icals. They have kids they’re apparently
willing to send to their deaths for no purpose, and they don’t care if you
don’t show pictures of their children’s caskets coming home. We do wish you
success in Iraq , and hope that the WMDs turn up, but we’re not willing to
spend our resources in Bush’s Quagmire.With the Blue States in hand, we will have firm control of 80% of the
country’s fresh water, more than 90% of the pineapple and lettuce, 92% of
the nation’s fresh fruit, 95% of America’s quality wines, 90% of all cheese,
90% of the hig! h tech i ndustry, 95% of the corn and soybeans (thanks Iowa!),
most of the U.S. low-sulfur coal, all living redwoods, sequoias and condors,
all the Ivy and Seven Sister schools plus Stanford, Cal Tech and MIT.With the Red States, on the other hand, you will have to cope with 88% of
all obese Americans (and their projecte! d healt h care costs), 92% of all U.S.
mosquitoes, nearly 100% of the tornadoes, 90% of the hurricanes, 99% of all
Southern Baptists, virtually 100% of all televangelists, Rush Limbaugh, Bob
Jones University, Clemson and the University of Georgia.We get Hollywood and Yosemite, thank you.
Additionally, 38% of those in the Red states believe Jonah was actually
swallowed by a whale, 62% believe life is sacred unless we’re discussing the
war, the death penalty or gun laws, 44% say that evolution is only a theory,
53% that Saddam was involved in 9/11 and 61% of you crazy bastards believe
you are people with higher morals then we lefties.Finally, we’re taking the good pot, too. You can have that dirt weed they
grow in! MexicoPeace out,
Blue States
Seven-year-old boy goes on killing rampage at the zoo
It’s time for a disturbing news story! From the BBC:
A seven-year-old boy has been filmed going on the rampage at a popular zoo in Australia, killing rare reptiles and feeding live ones to a crocodile. …
The attack happened on Wednesday morning after the boy entered the zoo by jumping over the security fence and evading sensor alarms.
Over the next half hour, he bludgeoned some of the animals to death with stones and hurled others over the two fences surrounding the crocodile enclosure. …
Just … wow. I mean teenagers and adults have done worse things, but a seven-year-old kid?!
Also on the BBC, towards the bottom of this article about last night’s VP candidate debate, there’s a word cloud of the words most frequently used by Palin during the debate. What an interesting way to look at candidate’s jargon and theorize what this means about their priorities, though I’d prefer them also using most commonly used phrases like “Main Street”. (Did anyone notice that every time Palin said “Wall Street”, she said “Main Street” once or twice within the following sentence or two?
Is anyone else seriously afraid of Palin becoming VP?
I think Matt Damon pretty much sums it up:
You do the actuary tables, you know, there’s a one out of three chance, if not more, that McCain doesn’t survive his first term, and it’ll be President Palin. … It’s just, it’s absurd. It’s totally absurd, and I don’t understand why more people aren’t talking about how absurd it is. … It’s a really terrifying possibility, the fact that we’ve gotten this far, and we’re that close to this being a reality is crazy.
(Kudos to View from North Britain for the video link.)
Seriously, this is both baffling and terrifying. To be fair, I thought the fact that Bush was elected for a second term, no matter who his opponent, was also baffling, but this is on a whole new level. The U.S. as a country and society has raised the bar on ridiculous, baffling, idiotic moves. Yes, of course it’s the political party members who made this decision, but the fact that we have a society in which a political party supported by a very large percentage of our population is not only allowed to do this, but furthermore is praised for getting everyone excited about politics again. Shit.
Though I guess all we can do is laugh off our collective stupidity, as per usual: SNL did a humorous skit with Palin (played by Tina Fey, of course) and Clinton, which was mainly humorous because of how idiotic Palin was — the very reason why her present position is actually ridiculous and terrifying.
The following is probably the only heartening news regarding Palin that I’ve heard since she graced the public eye with her presence: from “Alaska Women Reject Palin”:
Never, have I seen anything like it in my 17 and a half years living in Anchorage. The organizers had someone walk the rally with a counter, and they clicked off well over 1400 people (not including the 90 counter-demonstrators). This was the biggest political rally ever, in the history of the state. I was absolutely stunned. The second most amazing thing is how many people honked and gave the thumbs up as they drove by. …
Then, the infamous Eddie Burke showed up. He tried to talk to the media, and was instantly surrounded by a group of 20 people who started shouting O-BA-MA so loud he couldn’t be heard. Then passing cars started honking in a rhythmic pattern of 3, like the Obama chant, while the crowd cheered, hooted and waved their signs high.
So, if you’ve been doing the math… Yes. The Alaska Women Reject Palin rally was significantly bigger than Palin’s rally that got all the national media coverage! …
The citizens of Alaska, who know her best, have things to say.

